Yet I Eat

I chop sweet potatoes for my lunch,

listen to the knife against the cutting board—

thunk, thunk. The vegetable falls

in two pieces, again, again.

I scatter sharp crystals of salt

from between my soft fingers.

I twist

and the peppercorns break.

I do not know when

you or I will die—

when I’ll hear that strange thunk,

and fall to pieces—body and soul severed.

The thought of it keeps me up,

when I’d rather be sleeping.

I wonder if I will wake from my sleep,

and wonder what I will wake to.

A shudder at the shard of space

between me and death,

which hovers at every intersection,

and asks if I know where I am going.

I know the sweet potatoes will be done soon.

I do not know the hour of anything else for sure.

Yet I eat.